Wow it's been three years since I made one of these how horrifying
There was a time where I considered this account dead. As far as updating, checking notifications...stuff like that. Basically, I've been in a near-long emotional strife about myself. I lost my passion for the one hobby I originally thought I could myself of something in this world. But personal expectation and reality for me isn't a good combo. Like peanut butter and tar sandwich bad. Personally, I've gone though breakup, family issues, attempted rebuilding of friendships and of course my own personal hardships.
All of that took a toll ultimately on this very hobby of mine, and it killed my drive to draw six feet under.
And then, it came back.
It was a spark, a spark that suddenly came back to me and I couldn't afford to let it die again. Wow this sounds corny...but for real.
After a depressive spell stemming from cynicism and my own insecurities I sought out people who I can speak to. To help calm me down. I want to thank those people, I really do. And just a week ago in a group chat elsewhere they suggested I draw. I was uneasy, because I haven't mustered up any passion to do so. They still convinced me to do so, and so I did.
...and not even five seconds in I gave up in frustration and lack of confidence in myself.
Then, this past Sunday night, my mind was telling me "do it, you can do it you feel that little, tiny spark...don't let go away"...
And I listened to my mind. Usually I overthink and doubt myself. But for some reason I didn't do that.
And damnit I actually liked it.
From one sketch to two to five...to ten, I started finding a groove. And here we are.
I don't know how many of you remember me, or care to rather. This account has a lot of baggage I want gone. So I'm heavily considering a soft-reboot here. Freshen things up at the core. I want to try using this site again; I owe this place to meeting new people, some friends I would still be in contact to from time to time. Other friends that I grown distant to over the years I hope to make amends with again. Of course, this is life; there are no guarantees with things like that. But if I feel inspired juuuust enough of a damn to try, then damnit I will.
...I got nothing else to mention other than I guess you'll be seeing me around a little more often than before.
Listening to: The vast array of music on my phone
Reading: Uh...the internet?
Watching: the very screen I'm typing all this on; my laptop
Playing: Nintendo Switch stuff
Eating: Sunflower seeds (the David kind)
Drinking: Cranberry Grape juice (the Minute Maid kind)